I get that people have much bigger problems than mine
I get that I’m the fuck up
I get that I’m the one who screws up my own life 99% of the time
But is it so bad to just want somebody to love you..
I feel so lonely… and I feel so terrible that I feel that way
Because I know there are people who really do care about me now and I never want to take that for granted because I didn’t have that before..
But I don’t feel like I can talk to any of them.. and even if I could, they’re all just friends
I want someone to hold me and love me… and the one person who tells me they’ll do that isn’t 100% committed to me… and I can’t say anything about it because I want them to be happy, and its selfish if I do
So I pretend it doesn’t hurt to see them publicly with the other person they’re with, I pretend I’m okay
But I’m breaking, my heart is shattering
It hurts so bad but I don’t know how to fix it
They say that this is just them trying to figure themselves out
But everything I do is wrong
They have two people trying to make them happy
I have one who criticizes everything I do..
And I can’t talk to anyone about it because everyone just says I’m an idiot for staying with them
I feel like I’m being taken advantage of, but there’s nothing I can do to fix it
I don’t know what to fucking do
Help me..
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I read this quote to the effect of “Your power in a relationship is equal to your willingness to walk away from that relationship if it’s not working for you.” Think of it like bartering in a market. The less willing you are to walk away if the price isn’t right, the less power you have.
I don’t mean to say that relationships are all about gaming your partner, just… if you put up with anything, some people will take advantage of that.
I recently left a relationship because I didn’t feel like I was being treated right. I have never done that before, and it wasn’t easy. I feel so ready to take that person back if they change. But tbh I have other things on my mind now. I guess it was the right decision.
are you in an abusive relationship?
Yes you are right it is your fault