Night terrors

  December 1st, 2017 by Cause of Death: Suicide

I have frequent night terrors of being raped. I thought it would leave me when I left my old house. It has followed me to this new house and I keep having these dreams. I have done nothing to make these dreams follow me. I am celebate and I don’t even watch pornography. I was so relieved to move because I thought the nightmares wouldn’t move with me. When I had another nightmare after moving, I will never forget how terrified I was. I thought it was something about the other house and they would stay there. Now I guess they are attached to me. I was thoroughly convinced they would end once I moved. No, I’ve had like ten really really bad ones in the last 7 months.

 

It’s hard because yeah, I like to socialize, but I do not care to hear about others sexuality and that is where I draw the line. Yeah, I might joke around but that doesn’t mean I want anything more.

I have SO MUCH MORE important things to do. I have SO MUCH to get done. And all others want to do is creep in my dreams and rape/molest me. It really disturbs me and makes it almost impossible for me to get what I need to get done, done. I have really lofty goals and this is not something I want to be experiencing so frequently. I’m actually very afraid. I think it might be demonic or supernatural, because I’m not even like that.

It puts me in the wrong state of mind. Makes me feel like all I can ever do is be a predator’s victim and I’ll never complete what I need to do. It’s not a mood I want to carry around.

Before they would only follow me in my dreams, now they’ve started following me in my waking life too. I think if I leave this house I may leave the scary freaks that latch onto me here too. I’ve been debating leaving and living on street. I know a bridge nearby I could sleep under. But winter is approaching. I’ll bet I’ll leave soon. I wasn’t afraid to leave before of anything other than the cold but I did have a supernatural experience (if you read my previous posts) last week on Black Friday…. a fucking demon popped out of the pitch black and started screaming at me. I didn’t see it but had to run 3 miles. It was a literal demon, I believe. (Like a witch or a banshee..)

It might have been a farm animal. But I didn’t see any animals nearby when I went back in the light

It almost sounded like a child screaming or an elderly woman or a teenager (there was no one around for miles) (so….maybe a dead elderly woman)

I want to leave and head for mountains but that fucking scared the shit out of me….. I don’t know what it was so if that was really a demon then fuck I’m scared to even leave the house at dark on foot now.

 

Then this other thing happened I was getting ready for bed and I heard this really creepy ghost sounding voice say “MEEMA” It sounded like it was right next to me.

My life is like that paranormal activity movie.

 

Processing your request, Please wait....