December 22nd, 2017 by thehusk

Can’t commit suicide because…fear? Laziness? Self-delusion that it will somehow all work out ok? Survival instinct?

Can’t escape into addictions because…therapy? Tiredness? Need to believe that change is possible? Fear of the regret that comes when you realize that you’ve done it again?

Can’t stand living anymore because…overwhelming self-hatred? Crippling shame? Utter worthlessness? Complete psychological isolation? Undeniable guilt? Absence of hope? Hatred & resentment of humanity? Thwarted narcissism? Inability to see meaning in my life?

= the human equivalent of vomit.

Still, I’m sure it can get worse. So I should probably be appreciating this lovely pit I’ve dug for myself.

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