Where I am in life right now.

  December 7th, 2017 by Cause of Death: Suicide

SWORE to myself I would kill myself AS SOON as I turned EIGHTEEN. Turned 18 SOLD ALL OF MY THINGS IN ORDER TO BUY A GUN. ONLY GOT 80$ COULD NOT AFFORD GUN.

Now now now – this is where I am in life – I am 23.  My greatest feat each week is peeing in a cup weekly. “Boise  Aver’health”” wants 1,355$ from me. “Ada county court” wants 4500$ from me. “Idaho department of motor vehicles” wants 1150$ from me. “Nationwide” wants an extra 200-300$/month on me. “Ada County Court” wants 1900$ bail from me. My greatest pleasure comes from slamming my head against concrete or the interiors of where I sleep at night.

Last few years:

“West Valley ‘health'” wanted 36,000$ on me for 2 shots of abilify (I didn’t want those shots by the way) and 4 shots of haldol ativan benedryl and a 28 day stay (was forced to stay and couldn’t choose to leave). Intermountain health wanted 24,000$ on me (forced haldol ativan benedryl about 5 times). I never wanted to be put in these hospitals and what it was no different than a jail cell. I apparently started using “SelectHealth” and they were paid 6,665$  in two years. I just got woken up to talk to a slow f*g on the phone to cancel my plan I never signed anything to join on. I would have never choosingly gone to a doctor/hospital– the people are trash. Each time I have been forced. “Collision auto repair” wanted 1000$ from me. “Big O Tires” wanted 400$ from me

“Jackson’s and Camel/Marlborough” wants 2,200$ in three years for my only lifeline – my cigarettes. My weed dealers want 8,500$ for me in 3 years for my other only lifeline – my marijuana

My only income since 18 is $6500.

“Wells Fargo” wanted 300$ from me for having an empty savings account which I was too busy to look into and cancel while they just kept taking 5$ after 5$ each month.”Boise Police Department” wanted 480$ from me for Speeding twice

I just been sitting here busting my ass thinking howm I gonna ever get 300$ hard cash to buy a gun and end my life.

 

Some really bitter or desperate f*g must have done this to me

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