I finally got the push to the edge

Well,until now I’ve been trying to find a peaceful painfree method which I rarely had any luck with. Now to get to the point what happened today definitely pushed me so hard I’ll be gone very soon no matter how painful.

Do you know what sucks? When every belief you had in someone, the trust you gave them comes back to bite you so hard that you’re left shocked.

I trusted this girl so bad, at first I had feelings for her but then we became “best friends” or so I thought we were,I trusted her a lot I mean that much thst I told her about my suicidal thoughts.

Now she basically went on and told her bff about this, but this is not the main reason why I mad because I understand it is hard to deal with that alone.

Now what really pushed me over the edge is that I started talking to this girl, and the one who betrayed me we’ll name her Amy, Amy well went to her and told her.

:I saw you hanging with John, you should not trust me he gets so clingy and is an annoying little kid he wont leave you alone, don’t do the mistake I did.

Now this, this is something that destroys you completly especially after you confronted her b4 and told her to tell you whenever she had smth to say..

I confronted Amy and well, she kept on lying and lying. I promised my friend i wouldnt tell anyoneabout what she told me. Amy was trying to hard to find out what I know, I may have dropped a couple of details and then amy goes on and texts my friend: Hey did you tell John about anything? He is attacking me like a psycho and saying I insulted him. (I got sent a proof)

I don’t know what to do anymore can’t believe people can do that so easily.