I’m trying hard to hold on and see if I can make this whole “staying alive” thing work…
But I just don’t see it. And what is driving me CRAZY is that everyone keeps saying “you are so smart and educated, you’ll figure something out”.
Well, I’ve torpedoed all my job opportunities so far. I’m certain I chose the wrong career and I would give anything to go back in time and pick a different path. (I would love to go back to school but I don’t have the money—I don’t qualify for any more student loans because I am still drowning in the ones I already have.)
I tried a different kind of job within my field but that also blew up.
I have been looking at ads for jobs, and everything is just so damn specialized now. Entry level jobs that pay $20 an hour seem to require a Master’s Degree in some obscure area of study!
And even minimum wage jobs that don’t require any specialized education seem to require owning a vehicle. Who can afford a vehicle on minimum wage?
People have always told me that killing yourself because you failed in your career is an overly dramatic reaction. But I’ve done the research and I have confirmed that I am not qualified to do anything. And the whole “having a job” thing is pretty integral to the whole “affording to stay alive” thing…