I’m at my lowest point in life and I want to die. I hope something happens to me fast that I don’t see coming. I have given up. My thoughts consume me . Every morning as soon as I wake up my thoughts take control it is crippling and I get stuck in them. They are scary. I need a drink of alcohol. I have not drank in two years but it’s the only thing that stops these thoughts. The only problem I’ll get kicked out of where I am staying. I get no relief day in day out the thoughts never stop. I can’t hang on much longer I just want to go peacefully but I doubt it will happen. I feel like my only two options are drink and be homeless or just kill myself. I wish I lived my life differently I wasted my life already mistake after mistake I have wasted all my chances. I hope that all of you get through this suffering and find peace.