I was supposed to have a test today and I didn’t go and a friend of mine has a birthday today and I don’t wanna go to that.. I just want to die..
I tried taking pills a few years ago obviously it didn’t work I also immidetly told my parents and went to the hospital I got therapy for around a year.. I managed for about 3 years I distracted myself with tv and my phone, but this year had just been terrible I started going to therapy again and it helped at first than it got worse so i started taking pills which helped but ever since last week I can barley function, it’s not for some special reason I just don’t want to live anymore I can’t find a reason to keep living..
My family is extremely supportive and they try so hard to help, them and my therapist want me to try and pick myself up as well but at this point I don’t want to anymore..
I’m in my final year in high school and I keep messing stuff up for myself I’m supposed to go to the army after that, and I wanted to get into an important position there but I have a feeling i will mess that up too.
I just want to die.. at first I didn’t want to hurt the people around and that was the only thing that kept me going but now even that doesn’t help..
I just need a find a way to do it..
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You see, two months later i will be 19 so we’re in the same age.
Its been almost 5/6/7 years im messing up with depression n stuff and in this time my total attemps are 6 (in the late three months 4)
(In the past years making music helped me revive sometimes)
(There were 2 attemps ,other than those 6, that i had planned… but not for myself……….)
And i have stopped all of them.
In this time of mylife i had no support, no family talk, no doctor, no medicine, no hospital, no nothing.
Only me and me and me
(You just made me cry for myself:) )
And i…
found a reason to live
I changed a lot. But i changed to become better.
My diploma grade is 11 (out of 20)
But now im someone who has inventions even for mars. Youll see it in the next 5 years i guess.
My ideas are concedered by companies.
Im saying all this because you can become even better than me…
Only if..
You accept it but not distract yourself from it.
Face to face with it
Show your middle finger to it 😀
There are people in here with much more complicated problems than yours or mine..
And theyre alive, and theyre helping others to stay alive.. those guys are the heroes of mine nowadays
And i think there’s a lot you can learn from them.
Sorry if i talked judmental or anything like that. If you dont like my comment, my bad. I apologise