There’s so much that I simply can’t handle. I can’t handle being confused or conflicted. I can’t handle any kind of change. I can’t handle being wrong, or hated. I can’t handle pain. I can’t handle the complexity of the world and the difficulty of living in it.
“Those are all just facts of life, Kat. They’re a part of living.”
Okay, well maybe some people weren’t meant for living. Maybe some people are just too weak to live, and won’t ever be strong enough.
It’s the psychological equivalent of being allergic to the sun or the air. Everything hurts, and everything is exhausting, all the time. I wasn’t meant to be here. I wasn’t meant to be alive and conscious.
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I often feel like this too. Especially today. Today I just feel like everything is an open wound that just won’t stop bleeding.
I’m not sure what to suggest, but I just wanted to let you know that you are not alone in feeling like this. I feel this way most of the time, but ESPECIALLY today and VERY STRONGLY today and my plan right now is just to try to make it through the night. Hope you’ll join me in making it through the night too.
I’ll try my best. Thank you.
Psh. Weak isn’t what I’d call you.
Those all suck to deal with, especially when you have more than one at the same time. Nothing weak with not wanting more unpleasantness.