I decide to message to my very old friend to let her know that I am let her go. Last time we chat, she told me that I was abuser and hurt her a lot emotionally. I was surprised because she never told me that and still talk to me like usual for two years. Sometimes she had to force herself to meet up with me anyways to hang out. It was about two months or so since then. I just don’t want to hurt anyone anymore. The thought of me hurt her every time her eye lays on me or my name make me want to cry. I don’t want anyone to be afraid of me or hurt anyone. I want that to stop. I told her I am fine if she don’t want me anymore. I let her go.
I don’t know if It is because I forgot to take pill or if I am do right thing.
I am tired of hurt people without mean to. I do feel like I am a that monster and it DOES NOT matter if I am a good person.
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Do you apologize to people when they tell you you’ve hurt them?? Simply ditching them and walking away is the cowards approach. Failing to acknowledge your errors and doing what you can to resolve the fallout (if they want to hear that from you) is what will truly make you a monster, not the act of making the initial mistake, if it wasn’t intentional.
I did apologize more than once but It is never enough. I don’t think she heal from it. What you said is right. I guess I give up too soon, therefore make me a monster right now. I should give it more times for her to heal. I am idiot.
If you cared about being friends with her and you’ve already said sorry for whatever you did wrong, then you’re not an idiot, and there’s nothing you can do now but stay silent (in regards to her). (Or otherwise she’ll become even more angry.)
If you do think it’s best for you to move forwards without hoping you’ll be friends again, then do that. It’s true that you can’t let someone else’s silence emotionally bind you to anything. Life goes on.
Sometimes I think you’re very hard on yourself. Sometimes you can apologize to someone and they don’t really hear it because they’re just not ready or are still angry or upset. If you can let go of your friend then perhaps you can get a fresh start. I like you Bean. And I know you have the courage to move on. Even if it’s difficult.
The fact that I am hard on myself is not new. If I could get a dollar each time I hear that, I could have pay off my car by now… Thank you for an imaginary dollar, lol.
Thank you. You are very kind person, Wings.
I feel you, dude.
When I fall out of touch with someone I like, I feel like it’s solely my fault, regardless of what happens. I just feel bad, and I come back to it often. It sucks when you lose a friend like that.
It sounds like you did what you could though. And you’ll move forward. I believe in you.
it’s very rarely just one persons fault, though. you shouldn’t take the blame on yourself alone.