It’s been a minute since I posted something… I don’t even know where I stand right now, i’m confused and lost at this point here’s why………So for the last 8 months I as happy because I got into a relationship with someone who was special to me but about 4 days ago me nd his cousin was chilling and smoking then he kissed me nd it went from there but I had to tell my boyfriend so last night I told him nd today i’m sitting here next to him but we aren’t speaking nd i’m the cause of it.. Now im stuck between him nd his cousin because his cousin treats me like a Queen nd my boyfriend treats me like a girlfriend I don’t know what to do I just don’t want to make the wrong decision nd it fucks up everything…………………I keep crying, I can’t eat, sleep or even think straight I got so much going through my mind bruhh I feel like I juss need to disappear so I can’t hurt anyone else, I feel dead inside, i’m not even happy anymore, nd now I don’t know what to do or say to anybody I just want to curl up in a corner in a locked room nd cry and cut to ease sum of the pain I feel empty inside like nothing is there not even a heart or blood running through my veins. Can sumbody please help me out im so lost and confused I don’t know what to do nd the bad thing about it is we all attend the same school nd we all have the same lunch period……
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That’s a tough situation…Maybe you should all get together and talk about it and decide what are you going to do.Get together,be calm,don’t get angry and talk about it.I know that this sounds difficult,but what else can you do?I don’t know what else to say to you,I’ve never been in a situation like that.I hope I helped.
Maybe you should take some time for yourself and get some distance from the situation? It sounds complicated and messy, maybe getting some perspective on what’s happening can help?
Sorry you’re feeling so low right now. That really sucks. I can understand that your boyfriend feels hurt, since I’m sure he didn’t want his cousin to be kissing you or anything. I’m sorry, I don’t have a lot of advice for you, I just feel badly for you and I hope things work out 🙁 whenever I’ve been in such a suffocating situation, I’ve felt a lot better by taking sometime away from it…. like spending some time away from your boyfriend and his cousin, maybe taking a day off from school and focusing on self care etc. Talking to friends and getting their thoughts can be really helpful too! I know my ex made me feel like I was crazy all the time, and it was only when I opened up and talked to some close friends that I realized his actions were wrong and I was valid to feel hurt & upset. Friends can also help you talk through what’s going on and figure out what you actually want to do! I’m happy to try helping out with that too, but unfortunately I don’t know the situation at all so you’ll have to explain a lot. But if you want to talk, I’m here 🙂 I hope it gets better for you soon.
I really don’t know what to say to this…