Sometimes I think about what it would be like to be a bird, or a bear, or a leopard, or something like that. Not concerned with what everyone else thinks of you, because concepts like virtue, sin, and vice don’t exist. Being part of nature, not thinking you’re above it. Not dwelling on the past or worrying about the future, just living completely in the present. We seem to be the only animal that doesn’t live in the present.
It would also be nice to be a robot. Just to be able to sit down and work on a problem for hours or even days, without any goddamn emotions getting in the way. I somehow managed to block out most of my feelings when I was a kid, and I accomplished so much back then. It would be so great to have that kind of focus and concentration again. But I can’t do that anymore.
So humans have the worst of both worlds, I think. We have emotions, and they get in our way and cause us to behave in destructive and unnatural ways.