Everything about me is negative I never talk about positivity, but there’s nothing positive in my life so what should I do?
I wouldn’t be so hurt if I was in school like a normal kid with straight A’s, a job and lots of friends and a girlfriend. That’s success in teenage years. I can’t do anything right I can’t spell, I can’t read as well as I used to, I can’t learn because I was diagnosed with a learning disability in second grade, my grammar is bad.
Maybe all the rich people stuff I learned, “why the rich get richer and the poor get poorer”. Isn’t useful because I will never put in the work to be a successful as the people I see online that I wish to be one day because I’m too depressed, fat and lazy to do anything even just walk the dog down the street.
When I first got interested in real estate investing in the stock market I thought I had hope in my life I thought that I should learn before I get an adult age so I will have just enough knowledge I need to get started. I guess I tried to find something that’s very interesting to me so that I can get my mind off being lazy, depressed, and suicidal.
But as you can see I’m very sensitive about what people say about my interest. I’m very sensitive about what I want to be and I stick to my opinion and my beliefs but this time I feel like I’m losing it because I’m losing faith in myself and my dreams are shrinking. Everyday is a very hard battle for me I tear up so easily at the end of the week. I don’t know what to do.
I contemplate suicide for a reason not for attention. I never actually attempted suicide but every time I cry I get closer to my decision. All I want out of life is health, wealth, love, and, happiness but instead I have chaos, failure, torture, and, anxiety.
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You remind me a lot of myself. I’m fat, ugly, lazy, and have so much anxiety and I just want to die. But obviously, suicide is not the answer. I have achieved nothing in my life. Absolutely NOTHING. If you read my resume it would be a blank sheet of paper because I am completely useless. No skills what so ever. I never had a job or a boyfriend, and I’m turning 18 this year, and it’s likely I’m going to be stuck in this bubble of uselessness for at least another year. You think very negatively because you think there is nothing positive about you. But everyone is good at something. There is something that makes you happy. Whatever it is, you should focus on that. If you like real estate investing, then do that. Don’t let people tell you otherwise. You have to start somewhere right? As for your learning disability, you have to work extra hard to keep up with everyone else. Which means you can be hardworking (and that’s a skill!). So stop being depressed, because every time you fail, you’re one step closer to being successful.
I think that is hilarious that you bring up a “resume.” Those things, LMAO. I vowed in High School that I would never write a resume. I don’t think a lifetime of skills can be summed up in a page or two. You are skills, you don’t have skills, you are the skills. I’m not going to follow the order of the system and write one of those. A resume? Nah.
Same with college. Organized education? Probably not. I can educate myself on my own time. I don’t need a headmaster telling me what is or isn’t beneficial to know.
LMAO.
Couple things I want to point out:
1. “normal kid with straight A’s, a job and lots of friends and a girlfriend.”
It’s only when you get out of high school when you realize that these things aren’t necessarily a driving force in your life. Not saying you shouldn’t try for A’s, but high B’s and even high C’s are just as good. Passing is passing. Noone is going to ask for your GPA once your out of high school, and even when it’s relevant, like for college, that alone isn’t going to get you accepted into a college. The reason parents want kids to get good grades is so they graduate from school. It’s impossible to move forward in life nowadays without a HS Diploma or GED.
Friends. Having friends is good, socializing is good. You don’t need lots of friends, you just a few close friends you can count on, hell even one close friend you can count on. Even if you really don’t socialize with anyone, you can still make it work. At the end of the day though, unless you’ve really connected with someone, people in your high school move forward with their lives, and no matter how good intentioned you are, most people you knew from HS fall off your radar completely.
Girlfriend/boyfriend, same story. In high school, relationships are absolutely fleeting. Minus the rare occasion where you and said bf/gf plans on moving in together or getting married or something like that. Otherwise, it’s temporary. A lot of relationships in high school (if they last longer than a few months) tend to end at graduation, simply due to distance. You need to focus on you, and what you like. Screw what anyone else says. If you like ballet, for example, but get teased because it’s for “girls”, then do it anyway, because you like to do it. You may feel crappy about being teased, but you’ll be able to look forward to the thing you like. 🙂
2. You have a learning impediment. It’s out of your control, and it’s not your fault quite frankly. Take the extra time you need, and get the extra help you need, but try to finish things on a deadline.
3. Lots of teens come out of school with absolutely no job experience, and that’s okay too. Most of the time, it’s impossible to work while at school. Also, jobs aren’t going to ask you about your high school GPA. After HS, it’s nothing more than a selling point to employers, not to show that you’re smart, but to show them that you seem competent. I was one of those kids who spent the majority of time doing schoolwork, missing out on a lot of social interaction. Don’t be like me. Try to socialize a bit more, and get to know people with different interests. However, the best way to make friends is to do the things you enjoy and find others who like those things as well.
I tried a lot of things in school, even though I sucked at them. I found out I was okay at music and was in chorus for most of the time I was in school. I did a lot of things music related and made friends who did music related things with me. I was socially akward, and yet my friends were quite popular in my class. I didn’t get why I was even their friend a lot of the time. I was terrible at talking to girls I liked, and made a complete ass of myself around them; I wasn’t good at making jokes like them; I wasn’t slim or buff like some of them; but my friends liked me anyway.
I think you’re being very hard on yourself. I only ask that you be a little more patient with yourself. Being a straight A student, getting wealthy in your teen years, being popular with a girlfriend in high school, all of that is just a sitcom MC. Most people really aren’t all of these things in high school. People who weren’t “pretty” or “handsome” in high school become models and actors and singers after high school. People who seemed like they had nothing going for them have managed to make it in life. Lots of people hit their peaks in high school, the people with the A’s and the popularity and the girlfriend. They don’t know what to do with themselves afterward and just slowly fade into the background, working paycheck to paycheck, wondering what the hell happened. I believe in you dude, even if no one else does. Work on having a skill you can build upon. Make sure you have a plan B, in case plan A doesn’t work. That was part of my fall from grace. Try to find something you like about yourself, or a good thing that happened today, at least one thing.
Best of luck.
Your friend,
Trey, the mindless gamer
Follow your dreams. You can achieve anything you set your mind to. That is a great career and you will do wonderful. I love to take walks and walking the dog down the street would be a great hobby. It gets your brain fresh air and cleanses you body. It’s not as difficult as you think it is. Start small.