I hurt someone

  February 28th, 2018 by Zigzag

A few days ago, I made a horrible decision. I drank, and made a decision shortly after to text a friend of mine some very mentally abusive things.  For no reason. It was completely undeserved. I didnt consider the sort of impact it would have on her before I did it, and that disgusts me. It gives me immense sorrow and regret to know that I hurt someone I cared about so much that badly. If Im allowed, I am going to apologize face-to-face, and make amends. I’m going to offer to pay for any therapy or counseling she might need as a result of my actions. After that, I’m going to disappear from her life so that I cant hurt her any more than I already have. I’ve placed myself in intensive outpatient rehab for the drinking, and I’ll be scheduling an appointment to get counseling of my own, because I never want to do that to another person again. I’m not going to hurt myself, but I am having a lot of problems trying to forgive myself. I just can’t believe I did that to someone. She had a very special place in my heart, and now that place is a hole. I can only imagine what she’s going through, because besides the abuse, I know that there is a hole in her heart where I used to be as well.

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