On the 29th of December.
I lost my virginity.
To my now ex boyfriend.
I didn’t say no.
But I most definitely didn’t say yes.
I was too scared.
He was emotionally manipulative and I knew that “no” wasn’t an answer to him.
So I kept my mouth shut.
I lay there.
And took it.
It only occurred to me today that it was wrong.
I’m a fucking idiot.
But now I can’t breath.
I want to rip my skin off.
Every part he touched now burns with repulsion and I can’t take it.
Fuck
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How old are you?
18.
Go to the police and report him for sexual assault. If he did it to you, he’ll keep assaulting/raping other people without consent, unless he’s charged with a crime.
There’s no evidence. It’s pointless.
There’s a forum I sometimes go on, mdjunction… They have a rape support section. There’s people who have a wide range of experiences and advice from such..
I say this because I honestly don’t know what could help ease anything for you. I relate to the skin thing, and I try to go someplace calming when it appears but that’s not always an option.
I’m sorry this happened, as small as that is.
It’s okay thank you.
tell the police. even if you have no evidence or proof.
What’s the point in that ?
🙁
hey Angel (yup, i still remember ur previous name) <3
i don't know if you'll remember
we talked some time ago…
I'm so so sorry that this happened
you had enough troubles before that
& i could only imagine how much weight this adds on you
& as much as i know that it's very very difficult to think straight right now
i need to ask you this
if you imagine both scenarios
which brings you comfort
or at least less pain :
if you report it & it becomes a case with the possibility that you'll win it
or if you don't report it at all
?
regardless,
i just want you to know that my heart is with you Angel
& i'm here for you sweetness
it's okay
<3
big big hug
xo
I waste everyone’s time if I report it with no evidence and that will just make me feel worse but thank you.