Yes you read that title right! I’m gonna jump off a tall building in about a week. I’m really excited to see if there’s an afterlife or not! If there is I’m gonna be suprised but that doesn’t matter. Now you may think «there has to be other reason to end your life?» well there is! I’m so god damn bored with this life. I do the same thing every day. I wake up, eat breakfast, go to school, go back home and repeat. I see all of these amazing lifes and adventures in these different universes that I can’t be a part of. That’s why I’m ending my suffering. I’m also really lonely. I have a no friends and at school I never talk to anyone. I just wanted to post this so my parents will have a clue of why I killed my self. This isn’t a cry for help, this is my last message. Thank you for this awful life. 13 years wasted. I wonder how people will react. You know? What will people do? Will they just say «that’s weird» or «ok, that’s bad» but who gives a shit about me? Ok bye!
-Matteo
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you are only 13….there are so many adventures and experiences out there waiting for you. boredom is no reason to kill yourself. pick up a new hobby, join a sport or something where you can meet people and make friends if you don’t like the people at school.
there are really so many options out there for you at this age, and so much time and potential to have a great life. don’t give up.
You see, my dream is something that can’t be accomplished in this sort of world. Universe whatever you get the point.
I really don’t want to insult you, but at 13 it is impossible to know what is in store for you. anything that involves killing yourself is not a healthy goal to have- please seek help from someone in your life to help you! you are so, so young. I promise that you have an amazing life ahead of you.
You haven’t insulted me. In fact, I’m kind of happy to see that someone took their time to try to help me. But nothing is going change my mind. Thank you for your time.
please, I promise that your life is going to get better. please just talk to me! we are all here for you!
Oh god. I almost cut my wrist. Fuck I’m scared
I’m so scared
And alone
don’t hurt yourself. just try your best to calm down. get rid of what you were trying to cut yourself with, and take some deep breaths. call someone you can trust for help- your parents or an older sibling
you’re not alone, I’m here for you and I know without a doubt that your loved ones are here for you, too. you just gotta get ahold of them.
My mother and father died a few months ago. I don’t have anyone. That’s the real reason, I just didn’t have the guts to say it on this website…
I am so, so sorry for your loss. they would not want you feeling this way, much less hurting yourself. there has to be someone you can contact who can come keep you company.
if not, I am indefinitely here for you. please just keep talking to me.
I’m here to talk if you need to just don’t decide to kill yourself because you’re bored of life. At 13 years old you haven’t experienced much in life and there is so much to see. Trust me when I was 13, I would see my peers having so much fun and I felt like I was missing out on a shit ton of stuff. Now, at 17, even if it did take more time, I caught up a little. Yes, I still haven’t done everything a normal 17 year old has done and I feel like something’s wrong with me because of that, but I try to experience as much as I can. Just please, seek help if you are seriously in danger right now. You can call a hotline or continue talking to people on this website, whatever pleases you.
I can still see their faces. Everytime I close my eyes I see my parents bodies lying there. I was in the hospital for 3 months and I just feel so powerless. I feel like it’s my fault.
I don’t know what to do. I jusst don’t know. I feel so powerless. Why can’t I just be perfect like my peers? All of them gets good grades, look amazing and are amazing at socializing. I’m just a piece of shit who has never done anything in life.
but you are only 13. it’s not like you’re at the end of a long, unproductive life with no time or opportunity to change things- you literally have all the time in the world right now to make something of yourself! don’t succumb into the darkness, instead rise up and make your parents proud. push yourself harder at school for better grades so you can get a good job and scholarships in the future. right now you sort of have tunnel vision, and your sights are set on one dismal thing, when you could be opening your eyes to the entire world around you and everything it has to offer someone young like you.
I don’t know. I don’t know.I don’t know. I don’t know.I don’t know. I don’t know.I don’t know. I don’t know.I don’t know. I don’t know.I don’t know. I don’t know.I don’t know. I don’t know.I don’t know. I don’t know.I don’t know. I don’t know.
First of all, perfection doesn’t exist. Secondly, maybe some of your peers are dealing with their own struggles as well that you aren’t aware of. You must know that just because we may look appealing doesn’t mean that we aren’t struggling. Now, I don’t know you, but I’m pretty sure you must have some amazing and unique qualities since every human being is different. Don’t forget that you’re 13 so you haven’t quite experienced puberty yet and I’m telling you, even if I’m sure you look amazing right now, you’ll look a thousand times better when you reach the age of an adult. As for grades, all I can say is you have to work hard and put in the extra effort. Yes some might be naturally gifted, but if you study hard you can definitely reach your desired marks. Trust me when I put near to no effort I was getting around end of 70s and start of 80s and when I put in the extra effort I was able to up my marks to 95 and up. You shouldn’t worry much about it since you must be in like 8th grade? It’s not like these grades are counting toward you gpa for college. Focus on trying to find a hobby where you can meet other people and occupy yourself.
bye
Matto, what makes you want to die? Did something happen?
don’t give up. we are a big support system for you. just keep talking to us, and focus on finding outlets for yourself in the real world, as well. like blacklacecasket suggested, maybe pick up a hobby in where you will meet other like minded people!
I’m sorry please try to stick around here for a bit longer at least??
How tall is the building? Have you chosen it yet?
Oslo Plaza. Search it up it’s pretty tall.
I son’t want to waste your time. I’m not important.
that’s not true, you are very very important.
I’m not so sure about that though. I feel much more like a narcissist. All my life I’ve been surrounded by amazing people, and I don’t deserve them. They’re much more important than I am. And that’s one of their many qualities.
we are all going to feel like we don’t deserve the wonderful people around us, but the fact is that they are in our lives for a reason. whether it’s to comfort us or inspire us, there are reasons for them being around you.
But what if theres a reason they get taken away?
there’s a reason for that, as well. I can’t tell you the reasons why certain people come into our lives and why certain ones get taken away when they do. my take on it is that these people are meant to serve a purpose in our lives and they aren’t meant to overstay their visit once that purpose is fulfilled. now, we can’t always figure out what we are supposed to learn from them, but in time we will.
I lost the love of my life two years ago, and I still don’t know why he was taken away, but I know now that he wasn’t meant to be here forever. and that hurts like hell, but I have to accept it. I know he doesn’t want me sitting here wallowing in grief for the rest of my life, either. he would want me to get up and do something great with my life, with or without him in it. and I know for a fact that your parents want the same thing for you.
Is that true? Does my parents want that?
YES! I promise you that. your parents love you very much and want you to have a long, happy, and healthy life. again, you are still sooooo young Matto. I know right now it seems impossible to think of a positive future, but it’s there waiting for you.
God damn it why am I crying?!? I don’t deserve any of this. Now that i think about it my parents ate the most amazing thing that happened to me. I want to be with them again.
Good bye. Forever.
please don’t do this. I swear to you that this is not your only option and your parents DO want you to continue living for them!
God damn it I can’t do it.
I regret posting this. So much. The fact that someone cares about me makes me stop and think about my action. Damn it
I don’t care if you’re important. I just want to chat.
please don’t regret it. I am so, so grateful to know that you are reconsidering this. I promise you that your life is meant to be something amazing, you just gotta trust in yourself and give yourself some time.
I don’t know. I just don’t know what to do. I wish I could chat with someone.
we are chatting right now. I also have KIK if that is easier for you.
I would actually love that
my username on KIK is kt1038
Do a lot of people jump from Oslo Plaza? Is it one of those famous suicide places?
No, it’s the nearest tallest building I could find.
I think the afterlife is the spirit flying. Who knows where.
I’m 16 and I feel the same way. I don’t know what to tell you because I’m in the same boat, but what I will say is that I’m holding on each and veryday. I believe in my potential but I’m too down to start.
You gotta just hang in there.
Hello 🙂 have you considered getting a pet? Really motivates you tbh .
I’m calling troll.
So let me get this straight…
Your motivation for writing this post is so your parents who died recently will have a clue why you killed yourself?
Seek professional help buddy.
If you read the all of the replies you will see that I just didn’t have the guts to talk about it
She did read the comments. Which is why she commented.
I especially agree with the first two sentences of missing below.
People can be real fking asholes on this site. They’re usually just channeling their own inner loser. Anyway Matto, you said something in a comment that stuck out. “my dream is something that can’t be accomplished in this sort of world.”
That is significant. Most suicidal people are just soaking in their misery so there’s nothing to go on. But you have indicated that you have a dream. You don’t have to say what it is, but think about it and don’t worry about whether it’s possible or not. Maybe you can try taking small steps at working toward that dream. The journey may reveal new possibilities.
For example, suppose you want to be a pro basketball player but you’re only 5 ft tall. Sure, it’s pretty doubtful that you’ll ever get recruited, but if you enjoy playing and keep practicing maybe you’ll meet people and get involved in some other way like being a sports commentator or a reporter. Dumb example but maybe you get the point. Some dreams are impossible, but that doesn’t mean there’s nothing to gain by trying.