So I haven’t been back in a while. Not a long while, but a while. I got a job. Saving up for an apartment. Been going to counseling. I’ve noticed I’ve held up my head as I walk to class now. It’s an odd feeling. A little part of me doesn’t like it. I feel like I’m arrogant for feeling confident. When I’ve basically felt so small about myself for so long, this new attitude feels foreign and bad. Can’t really explain it. I told the cashier her hair looked nice. Felt like a complete creep afterwards, even though she seemed to appreciate the compliment. Don’t really know why I felt like saying it, but I just did. I never say anything to anyone besides, “Thank You” and “You have a good day too.”. I find many women to be beautiful. I never say anything though. Don’t want to be a creep. I feel like bothering people is not a good idea. Confidence with people is never a good thing. It’s because they are so unpredictable. That’s what scares me. This girl caught me starring while walking by. Felt bad. She probably thinks I’m a creep. Oh well. Most people probably feel that way. Don’t know why I felt like writing on here. Well here it is.
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You are not a creep for thinking other people are beautiful. We are built to find each other attractive. Look people in the eyes. If they look away then leave it alone. If they look back, talk to them. Simple as that. No touching without consent, be respectful and you’re all good. Definitely not a creep.
Confidence is great, even when it doesn’t feel like it is. Even creepy jerks can be admired for their confidence. I’m happy you found some. You deserve it.
It is good to be spontaneous. If I like a woman’s hair I will tell her. It isn’t creepy unless for some unknown reason she hates you. But if she doesn’t know you she probably just takes it as a compliment.