I just want it to stop.
I don’t know what else to do or say. I just want this pain to stop so I can start living my life without feeling like, every day, that I should kill myself. I work so hard at my job and my mind still tells me I’m not good enough. I try my very best in school and my mind still tells me that I should just give up. I’m outgoing, I have friends, I know that my family loves me, but my mind still tells me that I’m completely alone and nobody cares.
I just want this to end, to go away, to leave me alone. I know I could be so great if my own mind and body weren’t fucking attacking me every day. if there were someone I was supposed to beg to, I would plead with every last bit of strength I have to just… please. let me live.