Perhaps I have no idea how to live a happy life, sometimes it doesn’t click with me on how life should be fun.
I’m still searching and lurking for a reason to live.
I need that key, the key of happiness.
I’m not saying that I’m always miserable, no let’s see the scale shall we, the week has 7 days correct? Well I feel miserable 5 of these days.
People do like me but I always feel that I’m alone with nobody around and nobody cares which isn’t correct, cuz people are around and they do care about me, but I just can’t get this idea inside my head.
What I truly need is….. Just one nice friend and a girlfriend.
And I believe I can live a happy life, I know not so demanding right?….yeah, but u can’t find them that easy in this generation, they r different now, people changes as matter a fact they change a lot in just a month.
And people like me who’s desperd to have friends get turn down very fast cuz we can’t change.
They’re looking for specific standards, and unfortunately we can’t fel these standards.
I don’t really know if I can live an another year without anyone beside me.
Depression, anxiety, and many more of deadly diseases that I have, but I’m still standing and I’m waiting for the day the day that well make me feel absolutely free.
Ps: I didn’t post this asking for help, I posted it for the sake of writing, it’s kinda fun to write about your life it makes u feel good deep inside at least for me, and u don’t have to comment anything just read it.