What’s Our Purpose?
I always have questioned our existence and watched all kinds of videos on it. How we are here for a just mere moment before we die. Life feels like it will never end, but you and I both know it happens to everybody. We’re also scared of losing people that matter to us. Like i constantly worry about my dad because he drives 40 min back and forth to work everyday. All it takes is a car crash, or a stroke. My friend’s uncle just passed away last Monday and it freaked me out because i was friends with him. Not close friends but i had have like a 3 hour conversation with the guy about his life. Scared me because i got to know him. Like i’m so afraid of being alone in this world. I have spent so many days by myself with no social contact and nobody checking up on me or messaging me on my phone. Loneliness is also the #1 risk factor for suicide. Loneliness does kill, seriously. Like spending all this time alone fucking kills me. It has turned into a constant fear. Like i cant live alone. I would probably kill myself then because i wouldn’t matter to anybody. All i got is my parents and a cousin. 3 people give a shit about me.
As you can tell, i always wonder about death, because you wonder what’s on the other side. Hopefully you don’t go to a place that is as fucked up as this world. This world is 100% sure without a doubt, a fucked up place to live in.
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Out of fear I think you’re stressing yourself out over nothing.
Yes, there’s a possibility technically that everyone you know could drop dead of anything at anytime.
But how many times has your father driven that route and nothing extraordinary happens? How many times have you been in a vehicle with the same result?
There’s a lot of possibilities, but with so many out of our hands all we can do is focus what we have control over and do our best there.
All I can say about being lonely is that you have to find some way to meet and interact with others to ease that. Doesn’t even have to be face to face.
Definitely a screwy world, but it has some perks.