I don’t care…

  February 5th, 2018 by AlwaysSoTired123

“If I drive fast enough…the impact will make it quick.” “If I could just drink a little more, I’ll fall right to sleep…” ” If I could just cut a little deeper…” These thoughts used to scare the hell me…but now, they just hang around in my head, like a lingering headache, that you just can’t seem to get rid off. Death now, doesn’t scare me. I don’t care if there’s ‘another life’ after this one or if I just end up as plant food. I just don’t care anymore.  I haven’t cared for a very very long time.

…I don’t care if deep inside, I rot away and just completely die inside. I don’t care if I, alone, have to carry this burden for the rest of my life… I will never allow myself to end it all. I just can’t. The thoughts of my parents and siblings, suffering in the aftermath…possibly questioning themselves if they were the reason for what I did…If what I do, changes my sweet little baby sister…

Those are the thoughts that scare the hell out of me…

 

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