If i do not delete this post before tomorrow, you will know that i have succeded in taking my life.
I am no longer able to keep going, i have lost all strive and will to keep going. Life has no meaning. I had one life and i had to spend it mentally fucked up and unable to function properly and im so done.
I wanted to make a long note, telling my story and how i got to this point, But i dont have the time.
I know people are going to be upset and sad. And i know this sounds selfish. But they should understand that them trying to keep me alive is me continuing this hell on earth, this endless feeling of nothing, the screaming in my head.
I plan to hang myself later tonight. I have the rope and a ceiling fan that will do just fine. I will write a proper note to my family and friends. This will be my last post if everything goes according to plan.
Goodbye.
~Alex.
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oh Alex, I will keep you in my thoughts all day and hope that I see another post from you soon. please. you are so loved and there is hope. we can find it together. <3
Good luck alex, I wont tell you it gets better because that’s complete bullshit. It only gets better for some. I hope you decide to pull through because that would really give me hope for myself but that’s not always whats best. Good luck sweetheart, I hope your pain stops, one way or another.
…vinyl You have a large collection of vynil. The media. I have a Dynaco ST-70 (please goggle). The amplifier. We don’t live entirely for our toys, but parts of us do. If you go I will play a song for you, if you stay I will play a song for you.
Hi Elysavinyl, are you still with us?
Logic would say you are gone, but I can only hope you made it through, please say you did.
I
m sorry