This world is not for me

I lost hope in myself. I experienced love and happiness, i’m rather spoiled with all the tech. Yet it’s not helping the fact I have no confidence in myself and my interactions with others. I have friends and family that are normal. I still disappoint them otherwise, seems like I am trap between staying discontent and taking my own life. I don’t want to burden many people with my death. Walking through a forest seems simple enough.