How do you drag yourself out of depression and suicidal thoughts when everything just keeps going wrong?
10 years ago – lost job, lost home, lost partner, lost family/friends got depressed and failed at dying
last 6 months- lost friends/family, lost partner, lost job depressed again, lost my home again
I’m tired of trying I’m tired of failing
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Why do your friends leave you? It’s realy sad you have no unconditional friends or lover, life is unbearable without it. I finally found the person i’ve looked for my whole life after 8 years of continuous suicide thoughs and plans i found a reason to live. So it is possible thins will get better again. But i realy understand you are tired of fighting. Do you have no friends at all annymore?
My friends are gone half when I was depressed and pushed them away the other half when I was honest to myself and them if being gay.
I too met someone and I felt for the first time happy and comfortable and all the bad thoughts went away but they left me too just like that no reason just gone. She must of realised after 3 years together how horrible of a person I am
@foundhappiness; you are an idiot. Of course women and men can be gay. You might think you do what God wants form you by making lives of others to a hell by comments like this. but i’m sure you’ll burn in hell for pushing people to suicide with the comments you make here.
Didn’t you write that you pushed someone you love away? When we get depressed and suicidal we aren’t usually thinking quite right. We are very emotional and are thinking accordingly. Emotional thinking isn’t rational as it comes from what we feel and what we feel isn’t necessarily what is real.
It sounds to me like you get so emotional you burn bridges in many ways trying to give in to what’s hard to give in to. Suicide. If you want a better life then you have to find a measure of control over yourself when you fall into these states of suicidal depression like this. It helps to first be able to understand that you are feeling this way when it happens and to remember what you really want (ie. Do you really want to burn bridges and aim your life back into a downward spiral at the hopes it will lead you to death or would you rather try to make it through this suicidal and emotional state somewhat still intact with friends and family?).
I was like you. I pushed everyone away for years and years and who I didn’t push away I simply stopped talking to. And all because I had half hearted plans of death happening for me. I slowly realised that it was my mental state during these periods that I felt suicidal that was rationalizing all of these horrible life choices. In turn I started making plans when I felt better of what I really wanted and made a hard memory of them so I could bring them to thus state of thinking I just wanted to die and everything sucked. It was quite a fight for a while but now when I feel suicidal I can remember that I really want to live and be happy and it might just be possible if I don’t push people away.
I hope this helps.