If I can take the stress, then I’m going to wait until the end of April or sometime in May to end it. If not, I’ll end it this month. I feel so much pain, mostly emotional pain. I’m a fucking failure who now is just focused on enjoying the few things I’ve never done but really want to do and after that, I’ll go. There’s little left for me here and since I have no moral obligation to stay and didn’t ask to be born, I’m not going to stay for anyone. I’ glad I don’t have kids because I’d feel even worse about my life and would either feel bad about ending it and die of stress or would have ended it sooner.
I’m still debating whether to disclose much more about myself and whether to talk to anyone one on one. I’m just afraid that if I do talk one on one, that someone will try to stop me
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May i ask why you feel tempted to suicide ? …. Been there multiple times … If need somebody to talk to im here buddy .
There’s a lot of reasons, mostly having to do with always being unbearably anxious all the time, especially at work and college or whatever other school I go to for any career. Also, my mom and grandma have scoliosis and I think i have it, too because of my best constant back pain.
If it looks like I won’t be able to live in my own for whatever reason, I’m gonna end it because I’d rather die than be completely dependent on others like that.
The anxiety alone is a very tempting reason. It’s horrible.
I’m going to school (not high school, I’m 20 and got aGES a few years ago), so I’ll be back on later and thanks!
don’t do it.