My Story #MeToo

I just realized something when I was looking through my on this day thing on facebook. I read this one post and almost started bawling. 4 years ago today was when I went to campus police ( this was back when I went to college out of state before I transferred) to report the classmate that sexually assaulted me 3 days before my 19th birthday.

Just thinking about the hell I went through literally the next year after that including the investigation, the trial ( that I lost regardless that the evidence was enough to convict him!), the emotional trauma, public humiliation, me losing my position at the university radio station, the flashback nightmares I had, the nights I waked up in a cold sweat shaking, my abusive ex breaking up with me, two suicide attempts and me ending up in therapy.
The thing I’m thinking is if I could talk to the me from back then about all the good things that are happening now in my life. Me being healthier emotional though I am not perfect I am better than what I used to me, Me being in the the best and healthiest relationship I have ever been in, Me being less than a year from graduating college. I wonder what she would to say to me or would she laugh and think I was crazy….
I don’t know what to think. I’m sorry if this is too raw for some people in this group but I just needed to say something.