FIrst thing first please DO NOT leave a comment saying “It’s just a boy get over it.” or anything in that category because I wouldn’t make tell you something to make you feel like your problem(s) you may be having less daunting all of our problem(s) are a big deal to us…and I would like it if you would make mine seem smaller than it is..cause it may not be big to you but it’s huge to me.
Okay…My name is Gracie,i’m 14 years old about to turn 15 in 5 months.My life has had it’s up and downs,just like the rest of you.I just can’t seem to get anything right these days my life used to be perfect.The perfect boyfriend,the perfect friends,the perfect grades everything was going fantastic almost too good to be true.Until…I lost him….he left like it all meant nothing to him,like he couldn’t care less if I died right this moment…I was so damaged and broken I had nowhere to turn….I cutted every night for 4 months,cried myself to sleep every night for 4 months.He dumped me a week and one day before christmas,not because he wanted to his mom had made him…he said we could still act like lovers,he had came to my house that night to tell me in person he was dumping me.He told me to video chat him the next day at school at lunch,so I did and as soon as I saw his face I broke into tears,I told him I couldn’t talk to him right then without crying I would talk to him later…not knowing I wouldn’t hear from him again for the next 4 months…..that was the last day he texted me.I was really hurt…I felt like I had done something wrong…and I had the urge of wanting to go back and fix what I had done..but I couldn’t and thats what made it worst.I slowly started getting back to my old self,the happy me,the funny me,the hyper me.But he popped back up in my life again,out of nowhere…I get on my messages and I see I have a message from him…and I text back,when I do he’s pouring out his soul to me.Saying i’m sorry Gracie,I didn’t mean to hurt you,my mom had my phone so I couldn’t text you kind of bullshit.He tells me he still loves me..and being a dumbass I am,I fell for it,I believed him,I took him back.I loved him…or what I thought was love.it wasn’t even a week after we were dating that he started ignoring me again….he ignored three days straight,and I wasn’t gonna let what he had done happen again,I wasn’t going to let myself go through that bullshit again…so I go to message him this morning and he had blocked me,so I get on my friends phone and had texted him this:
Are u fucking serious? if your gonna dump a girl tell her don’t leave her wondering if he still loves her or not because he’s been ignoring her.And you didn’t have to block me all you had to say was hey it’s over or some shit,just shows a sign of immaturity…I wanted to believe that it wasn’t you who was truly doing this I wanted to believe that someone else had access to your phone and you couldn’t talk to me….but now that I see it’s you that has looked at my message and then decides to ignore me(I believe it’s you,my gut instinct is telling me it’s been you) and then block me but hey it’s okay..you don’t want me in your life i’ll just walk out…if this is truly daemeon why did you do it again after you said you wouldn’t? Why did you lie and say you loved me? I still love you Daemeon but I can’t continue to be with someone who can’t talk to me….when you are allowed to be with me and still want to be with me we can give it another go but till then I can’t be with you…I can’t have a boyfriend that doesn’t talk to me…yes I will still wear your jacket,Yes I will still say your mine,and yes i’m here for you…text me back soon if you still want to be together but if you don’t i’ll have to go my separate ways just till we meet again or are allowed to talk again.
Still no word from him,it was the hardest thing i’ve had to do…I just hope I made the right decision…