I want to sink forever in a hole. I know that if I continue to think this way I will get exactly that. An unhappy life where I can cut myself 4 times a day. But I guess if thats what I want I can have it. Theres something in my throat wanting to claw out of me. I know I could quiet it down if I just cut myself a bit. I don’t even know what I’m going on about. I don’t know if I want someone to save me, or just want someone to smile sickly as we die together. No one reads this shit anyway. My own fault I guess.