have you actually done anything of the like though? To move to that next step? So you can say you have actually done it?? Then you would feel better about yourself.
It is complicated really. I am blessed, very blessed. Being blessed, I feel strongly I must bless the ones who bless me. This means maintaining life at a high personal cost to me but also to them I am a cost. It is a pricey blessing I have. This dance of giving and receiving at a level that defies explanation goes on with my consent, and theirs, precisely because I can not explain it away and neither can they.
Mostly fear. I am cripplingly religious and am terrified of what’s waiting for me on the other side.
I also have a tarantula who would probably be returned to that stupid pet store if I were to die, which would be awful. They had him in a ridiculously tiny tank when I got him, with mulch as the substrate. Absolutely inexcusable. Maybe they should try sleeping on a bed of mulch in a puny closet and see how much they like it.
I am honestly against suicide except in some cases…. such as,,,
Incurable illness knowing you will die horribly if you let it go its course.
Log term pain (physical or mental) in which you have sincerely tried to cope with,,, and yet remains and you have tried all methods and with all of your soul to change things, and yet it only gets worse.
Realizing your situation,,, with no real way out of it.
Other than that,,,, we should continue on,,, especially if you have support…
I totally get it about your tarantula. You care for it and about it and they are beautiful.
May I say I have thought about the other side, reading scripture upon scripture about it. He knows we are made but of dust. Kings, prophets, and peons too have sought refuge in the grave in both testaments. Some did it, others didn’t.
i feel you. so when people tell me, “god loves you, just come to him. he’ll accept you as you are (except if you’re gay, cause well god hates fags and you should repent).”
In short? Hope. Hope that my current gf really is my soul mate, hope that we can have a life together. Hope that we can get to that point of absolute trust and faith in each other. I guess that’s it really. I’ve already made peace with the fact that if I lose her that’s probably the end for me.
i thought about it and i thinki’m afraid of how my mom would react. I’m only 16 and if she loses her only child it would make more harm than good. I don’t want her to be in the same dark cloud as me because i was too weak to stay alive
I always feel like crying when I see young folks on a site like this…. my heart goes out to you….
16 and already want to end it….
As someone much older, I will tell you life changes in many ways as you get older….you might feel smothered now,,, and think that will always be the case,,, but won’t. You have so many opportunities to live any kind of life…. mine,, well,,, its almost over naturally anyway….
The fact you also care about how your mom would feel also says a lot about you…. that there is a good person in you…
The Hope that i can over come this hole i;ve fallen into mainly these reoccurring patterns/habbits of drinking to much alcohol which is numbing my emotions/hurting my body in other ways, self destructive, upsetting others etc….. so that (I) can over come this negative thinking, transcend the mind be Love one last time and transcend the being and remain detached to truly rip when the body dies
Honestly for me its hope for the future, I’m a 15 year old guy and I have wanted to kill myself for a very long time but I some how convince myself to try and give it some more time. It’s also the fear of regret that stops me, every one who’s survived a attempt have stated that they regretted it the first second they did it, I’m not necessarily scared of death, I just dont want to do something that I know I will regret and that will probably cost me my life.
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My wife and kids… how sad is that?
It is not sad t all… really,,, it is a great reason.
Many commit suicide because they have lost their spouse,, one reason or the other…. it is what I first came on here,,,
Dreams of being a muscican or writer or something I care for in this world. Just dreams.
have you actually done anything of the like though? To move to that next step? So you can say you have actually done it?? Then you would feel better about yourself.
I know this answer may suck: life itself.
so you have things you like to do,,,,,
I just do it
can i ask why you come on here then?
I struggle with some things in my life
enough that you can’t go on?
Sometimes I feel like giving up yet I manage to go on
Wife and stepdaughter and therapist. I know I mean a lot to each of them.
Then you are blessed…. coz many have no one.
It is complicated really. I am blessed, very blessed. Being blessed, I feel strongly I must bless the ones who bless me. This means maintaining life at a high personal cost to me but also to them I am a cost. It is a pricey blessing I have. This dance of giving and receiving at a level that defies explanation goes on with my consent, and theirs, precisely because I can not explain it away and neither can they.
Mostly fear. I am cripplingly religious and am terrified of what’s waiting for me on the other side.
I also have a tarantula who would probably be returned to that stupid pet store if I were to die, which would be awful. They had him in a ridiculously tiny tank when I got him, with mulch as the substrate. Absolutely inexcusable. Maybe they should try sleeping on a bed of mulch in a puny closet and see how much they like it.
I am honestly against suicide except in some cases…. such as,,,
Incurable illness knowing you will die horribly if you let it go its course.
Log term pain (physical or mental) in which you have sincerely tried to cope with,,, and yet remains and you have tried all methods and with all of your soul to change things, and yet it only gets worse.
Realizing your situation,,, with no real way out of it.
Other than that,,,, we should continue on,,, especially if you have support…
Suicide is reserved for the truly hopeless…
I totally get it about your tarantula. You care for it and about it and they are beautiful.
May I say I have thought about the other side, reading scripture upon scripture about it. He knows we are made but of dust. Kings, prophets, and peons too have sought refuge in the grave in both testaments. Some did it, others didn’t.
Idk honestly because i have so much wrong doings goin on in my life n no glimmer of hope. God refuses to give me a break.
t g r f s h y @ y a h o o (dot) com
We should talk.
i feel you. so when people tell me, “god loves you, just come to him. he’ll accept you as you are (except if you’re gay, cause well god hates fags and you should repent).”
I’m laying in the hospital right now trying to figure that out. I guess it’s my husband that keeps me going. And my pets.
You have a lot of strength….
And you have support, you are fortunate that way…
In short? Hope. Hope that my current gf really is my soul mate, hope that we can have a life together. Hope that we can get to that point of absolute trust and faith in each other. I guess that’s it really. I’ve already made peace with the fact that if I lose her that’s probably the end for me.
I wish the best for you, because I too am in that position… I hope for “the best”.
I have along way to “go”,,, we do….
But I feel the same,,, but at the same time know that if I found this one and she didn’t work (but confident she will), I can also find another….
I just pick something stupid: like I want to see a moive this weekend, or something like that.
Well coping on a day to day or eek to week is good… if you are OK with that,,,, what matters is that you can cope,,,,
i thought about it and i thinki’m afraid of how my mom would react. I’m only 16 and if she loses her only child it would make more harm than good. I don’t want her to be in the same dark cloud as me because i was too weak to stay alive
I always feel like crying when I see young folks on a site like this…. my heart goes out to you….
16 and already want to end it….
As someone much older, I will tell you life changes in many ways as you get older….you might feel smothered now,,, and think that will always be the case,,, but won’t. You have so many opportunities to live any kind of life…. mine,, well,,, its almost over naturally anyway….
The fact you also care about how your mom would feel also says a lot about you…. that there is a good person in you…
The Hope that i can over come this hole i;ve fallen into mainly these reoccurring patterns/habbits of drinking to much alcohol which is numbing my emotions/hurting my body in other ways, self destructive, upsetting others etc….. so that (I) can over come this negative thinking, transcend the mind be Love one last time and transcend the being and remain detached to truly rip when the body dies
Unfortunately afterlife
Honestly for me its hope for the future, I’m a 15 year old guy and I have wanted to kill myself for a very long time but I some how convince myself to try and give it some more time. It’s also the fear of regret that stops me, every one who’s survived a attempt have stated that they regretted it the first second they did it, I’m not necessarily scared of death, I just dont want to do something that I know I will regret and that will probably cost me my life.