Yes i held on

Yes i held on. I held on hoping things to get better, what it that do for me? It prolonged the suffering, I held on only to experience an intense fucking unending pain. Before 2016, I had nothing to live for, I no job; no education; no love life and my mother was all I had. My poor mother who had to carry th burden of a thirty something years old useless individual. What did “holding on” do for me? I still have no job and I’m aging, my country’s economy is depressing; I have no education therefore there is no hope for a change regarding employment. Worst of all, my mother passed away and I’m feeling a big void that will NEVER be filled, I’m  going through an enormous amount of pain. I could have avoided all of that if I didn’t take that shit advice about holding on.