Before him, I was empty. I was alone, devoid of light. Every day getting harder and harder to breath. I was sinking in an ocean of darkness…sadness.
Then I seen him. Its like my heart was stumbling over its feet as it was racing around in my chest. I winced at this unfamiliar feeling. My ears cried with joy as his warm, silvery voice flowed through me. His eyes grabbed me by the collar and pulled me to the surface. I could breathe again. But it hurt.
When he looks at me, its like my soul gets torn to pieces. I yearn for more.
He hurts me. Why does he acknowledge my existence? It only causes me more pain. My mind races with the thought of him. My heart won’t stop pounding. I can’t keep feeling like this. I just want him to myself.
He makes me angry when he notices other girls, other people. Why would he hurt me this way? Doesn’t he know that I already gave my heart to him?
I am his, but he isn’t mine.
I can only wish to be with him.
I need it all to stop.
He doesn’t know me, and I love him.
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You’re running after somebody who’s making your definition of love more twisted. Get rid of him.
Ouch. I’m in a very similar situation. Gl. I’m just scared for you if he breaks your heart. What then? I ask myself this question too. I don’t know.
Hey! I tell you what. You love him. And you live by telling yourself “what if he loves me too”. You are trying to find the clues in his actions that say I love you. DON’T do it. Just go to him and ask him out. Talk to him enough so that you can tell your feelings. He might actually feel the same. In case he rejects you, you will feel better. Trust me, it sounds confusing but it will make you feel better knowing that you can’t get him. Maybe he seems like out of your league. Well that things doesn’t exist. If he likes you or fell in love with you you will be each other’s.
I was in the exact same situation but I chose not to tell her and 2 years later I found out that she liked me too. And I didn’t tell her. Please for the love of God TELL HIM. I didn’t and now she has a boyfriend and a secured life and it’s impossible for me to reach her. I will lose her in a week even as a friend as she leaves my city. Anyway, I just want you to know that the best thing in every possible way is to tell him how you feel. Cheers!