On Thursday, I drove to meet a group which coincidentally happen to be mostly men see the new Avengers movie. I found the group on Meetup.com since I’ve been told to reach out to people. With my bad luck, the movie for the time to be with group sold out, so maybe it didn’t matter. The group leader which to be acted very nervous and distanced towards me. This didn’t make me feel better. A had a hard time speaking to him because he kept walking all over the place like he was avoiding me, then he walked really fast towards the ticket booth as to get away from me, so I left crying and angry. I texted him that I hope he enjoys his show and that I was leaving the meetup. He did text back asking what happened, but decided not to response. To people thinking maybe he was just shy or nervous, and I need to stop taking things so personal. If that me doing what he did I’ve would been told to be nice, behave, it would be acknowledged that I was acting rude.
I can account all the times men have been cruel to me. If you’re interest in hearing more I’m glad to tell you just ask. I always wonder what’s wrong with me. Maybe I’m not attractive. Yes, I don’t wear make-up or the best outfits, but I’ve seen unattractive women with men. Maybe it’s because of my disability, I don’t many disable girls with a date. Maybe I don’t put out, funny they show some interest when I do test them, but deep down I think I did I want to win his approval.
I get angry when I see the guys show interest in other girls, or can act like a normal human being. Maybe I am jealous because I know I’ll never have men’s approval and being rejected from men only lead to my destructive behavior.
I’m going to get hate for this, but I don’t care. I wish men never existed. They are the spawn of Satan. I hope World War Three happens so they get drafted and suffer or die to their horrible deaths.
I know that I write a lot of posts b!tching about men, but this will the last one because I know that men don’t care about me. When I’m angry because the way they treated me I know that I am not hurting them one bit and if I killed myself I know they wouldn’t care. If they don’t care about me why should I care about them? Being indifferent will help on my road to healing. Me and men don’t get along and you what that’s ok. It’s who I am. I have given men more chances than they deserve and my patience is used up. Good bye men.
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Men and women are not that different leaving out biology and progressive shenanigans. I actually think women are more deplorable since facades, two facedness and false pretenses are integral in feminine culture. As a lady I can attest to this. Talking to other women is an exhausting dance of tiptoeing around issues and hearing platitudes prefaced with “in my opinion…” or “no offense but…” and never spitting out how they really feel. Everything feels artificially tailored to what they think i want to hear. maybe I just hang out with ***** women lol. Don’t get me started on banal gossip and pettiness seen in women.
I think you should have stayed in the situation. After a while, you would probably have forgotten his shifty behaviour and enjoyed the movie. If you do a runner in a situation like that, it only reinforces your fear of men.
I bet there are thousands of men with disabilities who can’t get a date, why don’t you try to reach out to them? I’m a man and I totally understand your hatred towards people of my gender. It’s OK. I’m 31, you’re a teenager. As you grow up, you’ll find it easier to deal with rejection. As for now, I don’t have much to say for you, because it’s natural to hurt with this intensity at your age. I have just one thing to say, every time you see a man, or a beautiful girl, just think that everything in this world is temporary. It doesn’t matter if they’re beautiful, or you’re in pain. Even if you were to become the most beautiful girl in the world, you’ll still be reduced to ashes in the end, just like you’ll be reduced to ashes if you’re ugly.
And don’t think that I’m faking it, but if I were in your country, I’d totally take you out on a date.
Try to consider the situation from a different perspective:
Maybe you came across as weird, distant, inaccessible or unapproachable?
Maybe the guy thought that dealing with you was more trouble than it was worth?
People do what they do for a reason. If someone made an effort to avoid you, perhaps you should try to understand why instead of blaming them for behaving in a way that seemed natural to them.
No one is perfect. If you’re rubbing people the wrong way, try to understand what it is about you that repels others. If it’s nothing, don’t worry about it; but if your personality serves as a form of birth control then maybe you need to rethink your approach to interpersonal interaction with others.
OP has made up her mind so this comment is not directed at her but to anyone who might be feeling the similar hatred toward men or any prejudice toward a group. Hatred toward people you have never met, in this case 50% of the human population, is a projection of inner insecurity.
The trigger could be a (insert ethnicity) person being rude to you, or like in this case the trigger could be a perceived slight by one individual. Depending on the insecurity, this sets of a self feeding fire which culminates in hating ALL (insert ethnicity) or ALL (insert gender).
Realize the problem is not the world. The problem is you. That’s the first step. If you don’t take that step I guarantee you’ll find more groups to hate, until you hate every living thing. At that point your destruction is complete and you get what you deserve.