Loosing myself

Last Remembrance Day I lost someone dear to me. Ever since then, I’ve been the one trying to keep my family together. I work long painful hours in a soul sucking job since my only parent hasn’t moved from their bed since then and cries when they’re awake. My sister is never home anymore and isn’t helping with bills and money, and I’m just so fucking sick of it! I just want to leave them all behind and move away, but that’s ‘selfish’ so I can’t. I feel so lost and empty it’s driving me crazy. When I was younger I never thought that at the age of 16 I’d want to kill myself. But there’s no point anymore, I have nothing left to live for.