What is the right way?

There are times when I’m panicking and other times when I’m not. I feel no fear and then it all comes rushing towards me. I’m hardly eating anything. I’ve run out of meals on my meal card and money. I should go pick up my last check. It shouldn’t be that hard. I think I’ll go do that soon. Pretty sure. Where should I go. No direction is terrifying. So terrifying. I’m afriad. so very afraid. Can’t seem to see anything.