i’ve been suicidal for the last 4 years now but it’s been getting worse every day. a combination of anti-recovery mentality, suicide romantisisation, and my own personal problems have ended up piling onto each other. my suicide attempts have been getting worse as well. my most recent attempt was hanging myself, but that only made me light headed before i pussied out. i guess it was just shame and embarrassment. i thought about someone i knew who ended up causing me to seek therapy and i cut one of my thighs in response. it was like i couldnt control it. i barely have any friends, im almost never outside, and i’m almost completely socially isolated. because of them. i dont know where im going with this anymore. i dont know how long i’m going to be alive for.
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I’m 32 and I think I’m going to kill myself, by hanging. I think I know how you feel.
I know death by hanging will be painful, but I’m going to try and find the courage to do it. I know that if I don’t I will be living through more pain.
And I need the pain to stop.
I attempted to hanging my self a few times but it’s more painful than what most people explain it to be.
You start to damage your brain before you die. And it takes 20 long minutes to die usually.
I thought that I would be able to do a partial suspension, but now I think I will have to commit to a full suspension hanging so I won be able to back out.
Life is scary but suicide is comparably frightning, for me. But I think today seems like everything is coming together for me to end it.
I couldn’t do it I chickened out, I have to find an easier way.
I don’t want you to die but I’m gonna thinking more and more that I do.
What’s wrong with charcoal grill in tent or car?
@jbone I’m planing on charcoal grill in my small apartment. This method get more popular in my country, so it seem to work. But the problem is I dont know how to get rid of the smoke detector. Anyway, i’ll find the way for that when I’m ready to do it.
Therapy is a waste of time they room you with a bunch of stupid f*cks. When all I’ve ever wanted is to end my life when I am told to seek help I just hurt myself more (like you said, you cut yourself, I gave myself brain damage from slamming my head into concrete.) I’m just sitting here in a pile of sh*t until I am finally able to complete my hopes and dreams and end my life.