My time is nearing, I been trying to find the courage to hang myself. Tonight I feel pressured to do it since it’s a perfect opportunity, I will avoid this horrible week coming up. Is tonight the night? I don’t know. But everything is in place for it. Part of me doesn’t want to but I feel I have to.
I can’t clear my head
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there is no pressure, so if tonight isnt the night, its okay. You dont have to do anything if you dont want to. Youu dont owe anyone a Deadline
I know but if I’m going to do it why wait. The sooner the better since I will be suffering less.
I don’t want to kill myself but I don’t want to live this way anymore, and I don’t see anyway out except suicide.
I wish you luck in whatever path you take
The Angel me says you should probably wait, and give yourself time to think things over. You already mentioned that you were ambivalent. Maybe that’s a sign that you need to take things slow. There’s no shame in asking for help if you need it. There’s the suicide hotline, or you could always call an ambulance for yourself. You said that you don’t want to kill yourself. If that’s the case, you should consider getting help for yourself. It would be really bad if you died, and gave up what could have been a happy life, not to mention the loved ones that would miss you. Kind of the stereotypical classic, but it’s true.
don’t curse and it’ll post.
Thanks zigzag, however my dad who is probably the closest person in my life has a very rare cancer and when he passes away my family will most likely loose the home we live in, I told them to switch titles over but they refuse, and I’m also worried that I might have accidentally lied on my medicaid application, and I’m worried that I could get fraud and perjury charges, plus I did have quite a few medical expenses, that I might not be able to pay back. I had a near perfect life not too long ago, and I can’t take any more upsets.
@freeroma how did you know I was having issues posting?
@definitelyworried there was a second half to my post. The Devil in Me says to do it. Forget about what the world says. It’s your life and your choice.
Of course I think of the people in my life, but I also think about the irreversible consequence of suicide.
Why is suicide so difficult?
Suicide isnt difficult. Love is. Social programming is. Biology is.
Zigzag, do you regret being saved from your attempts or are you glad you have some more moments of life?
I regret it. As soon as I’m able to afford that gun I’m out of here
I seen some people survive a shotgun blast to the face, although o would think that is rare.
Hey definitelyworried, are you still alive? I’ve been lurking on this site for many months and I’ve read about your struggles. I too plan to hang myself, but keep postponing it since it is scary. You really found a way how to hang yourself painlessly? I wish I could talk to you somewhere privately.