I have been slowly losing my memory I always knew this. I had difficulty remembering small things like what breakfast I ate or what dress I wore to work today. Now, I can’t remember things at work. I don’t have colleagues or friends at work. I go with my mouth shut and come back to my lonely apartment and stay awake until I can’t hold my eyes open.
Rn I don’t remember anything. It’s like a complete wipeout. I am all I have and I’m afraid I might be jobless once again. Last night I went to the rooftop garden in my apartment and wanted to jump off the building. Not like I’m sad or anything it’s just that I don’t fear dying and don’t see why I am alive.
The memory loss has started to scare me now. I don’t remember anyone I am so detached from everything and everyone around me. I’m glad I could pour all this here in SP.
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Today I forgot the song Footloose for a moment, I was a little worried because how could I forget that one? Took me about 5 minutes of a blank to remember but it was so hard to remember.
I can relate. Sometimes when i try so hard to remember something I end up forgetting what i was doing and I be like ‘what was I doing?’ and just move on. Its scary at times. What’s worse is, I can’t keep a conversation. I feel like im forgetting to talk.
I don’t try to talk to anyone anymore they told me I was autistic so I no longer talk to people
I feel like if I do the person i talk to will just be like hahahahaha she autistic
But I’m not
Lmao
Nother reason I’m going to kill my self
🙁 i understand. i don’t have anyone to talk to, i texted my friend today about my fading memory and he replied “stop talking non sense, we all have that”
being alone is better than having people around that cannot understand you
Yes, it’s scary. How old are you? I’m 36 and have memory loss already.
I am 29
how do you deal with it? i feel like i just don’t have anything in my brain, like i dont think at all. Women always keep thinking and I was no exception. But i feel empty these days. Like, there’s nothing inside my head. no thoughts, no memories, no plans, nothing.
do you feel the same way too?
Kind of feel the same way, just excessively clean minded and don’t like communicating much in person either. Wish we had the death with dignity law in the states.
I had that and then had a stroke. Turns out I have a brain condition… if you can afford to go see the doctor I would talk to someone.
Hmm i was thinking about it too. I cant afford a doc visit now, also I live in another country where med facilities are not very good. What symptoms did you have and how are you these days?
I also am living in another country right now.
Really bad memory, under stress my entire mind would go blank, couldn’t remember my address that I’ve lived at for 15+ years.
I couldn’t understand questions to exams, I would read the questions, but not understand what they meant.
It got progressively worse throughout the years. I have Moyamoya disease if you want to google it.
I am doing better, have had brain surgeries, but now I have terrible headaches
@theblackveal I’m really sorry mate. Are the headaches related to the disease? You may need to get it checked again. I googled and many ppl seem to take topomax for the post surgery headaches. You might be knowing already but is good to get it checked again.