I have been slowly losing my memory I always knew this. I had difficulty remembering small things like what breakfast I ate or what dress I wore to work today. Now, I can’t remember things at work. I don’t have colleagues or friends at work. I go with my mouth shut and come back to my lonely apartment and stay awake until I can’t hold my eyes open.
Rn I don’t remember anything. It’s like a complete wipeout. I am all I have and I’m afraid I might be jobless once again. Last night I went to the rooftop garden in my apartment and wanted to jump off the building. Not like I’m sad or anything it’s just that I don’t fear dying and don’t see why I am alive.
The memory loss has started to scare me now. I don’t remember anyone I am so detached from everything and everyone around me. I’m glad I could pour all this here in SP.