I want to be happy, but I’m scared. Scared because I don’t know if it will last very long, scared to let myself feel joy because I know the crash back down hurts so much, scared I’ll mess something up. Anyone ever feel similarly? At least now I know how I’ll feel tomorrow, and the day after that, and the next, and the next… Feeling nothing is better than feeling pain.
Also unrelated but whats the deal when I post a comment but then it doesn’t show up? I spend a long time writing them and then they just disappear…
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I understand what your saying. Pretend everything is fine and build a life for yourself only to have it crash away again