I haven’t eaten for a few days. Haven’t really had the motivation to get out of bed much either. I’m neglecting nearly every facet of my life beyond hygiene. Other than that, I pretty much just lie in bed and wither away.
No one values my presence, and all of my many friends I’ve made throughout my life have moved on and disappeared. Not a single person is left for me to care about and to value.
I am alone. I will be alone until I die. There is nothing I can do.
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get out of bed, please. eat something, shower, change your clothes, get some fresh air. i promise that you’ll feel better afterwards. even if you only go back to bed.
I mean, I do bathe and change my clothes. That’s more just because I hate feeling dirty, but i just don’t have an appetite anymore. I don’t really have a reason to go outside either. I feel extremely depressed outside of my home.
I don’t stay in bed because i’m sad or anything though. I do it because I literally just feel nothing, and have nothing pushing me forawrd. The world just keeps on spinning around me while I lay staring at the ceiling or sleeping.
I do the same thing on and off. I feel like I’m shutting down.
Why don’t you try exploring the other side of your sexuality? You may surprise yourself!
I’d love to, I just don’t have any opportunities to do that, really. Even online. I’ve really lost a lot of my ability to have much social interaction since I graduated high school in 2016.
You’re not alone, in Japan alone there are an estimated 700,000 “hikikomori”. No stats from other countries since I guess no other countries give a damn. I’ve gone through periods of this. I eventually get extremely bored, or start thinking “what’s the point of doing nothing” if you understand what I’m saying. Doing nothing requires effort. Just like starving or holding your breath.