my parents visited me over the weekend. they want me to just come home. (I’m 35 and recently lost my place to live. I am currently house sitting, looking for a job and place to live.) They said they would feel devastated if I killed myself.
I don’t want to hurt them. I love them and I know they love me. But I have made my decision and there is no going back. I cannot stay alive for other people any longer.
I was going to do it tonight, but my sister has a play tomorrow and I don’t want her to get the news before her performance. So I am waiting until tomorrow night.
That is as far as I’m going though: I will die at a less inconvenient time, but I’m not forcing myself to endure this torture to avoid hurting people. maybe that makes me a bad person, but I can’t take this anymore.
I just can’t do it. So I’m not going to.
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You have every thing to live for, and a loving home to return to and I assume you are healthy which means it is not the time to end life. You’re over thinking things and can’t see the wood for the trees. If you would not be considered for euthanasia in countries where it is legal then you really ought not to, only incurable pain that causes loss of dignity warrants suicide. Enjoy your healthy functioning mind and body and this beautiful planet.
How do you plan on doing it? What method are u planning on using?
sorry, I can’t tell you that. the rules of the site prohibit discussing methods. I have seen a lot of people doing this recently so maybe it is not strictly enforced but I don’t want to take any chances.