I have been struggling with suicidal feelings, not gonna do anything anyways, but just feelings are quite strong due to my life situation. struggling with doing a uni assignment and also with my sexuality, from a country that will not accept me, and my family probably will find me horrible if I tell them about it. I even find it hard to accept it myself. Lots of self loathing that I can’t even begin to explain. I am not sure how to keep going, just feeling hopeless about many things and how my life can ever improve.
I was often told I am smart but that makes me even more eager to want to succeed. But my mental health gets in the way most of the time.. Not sure what to do to hang in there.. Years and years of struggle with mental health really makes me feel my life is too hard to live. Have had therapy and all that but it’s still hard.
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I feel you. I hope we can talk for sometime
I’d been through where you are. I discovered my sexuality when I was 18. Very late. I got really depressed from it knowing that nobody around me then will accept my sexuality.
What helped me was…time. It took a while but now I’m at that place where I’m comfortable being bisexual. I found some friends within the LGBT community, friends I could count on. I don’t know about the community at your place but where I am, I feel like we’re a family already. We care for one another, even if for a little. All of us are precious.
Please be patient with yourself. You can’t just force yourself to either own or disregard your own sexuality. You have to choose whichever makes you feel more comfortable. And you have to know that there’s no right or wrong answer to that.
Are you gay or a lesbian?
I can understand how you feel friend , you just describe the same things I have been feeling lately ,
I am boy 20 years old, I am Gay ( There I said it ) ,in country where it seems I can’t be accepted , I have been depressed for a long time and nowadays everything seems pointless to me , I have thought about suicide but can’t see myself doing it .
Anyways hope we can talk sometime 🙂 as a friend