Anybody else get intensely negative and your brain goes into an emotional flashback which you eventually come out of but in the moment u cannot reason with yourself? It’s very scary and I can never recognize it while I’m in it. It’s only when it lifts and suddenly I’m able to have slightly more positive thoughts. I hate when it happens because I feel totally helpless and like I’m already dead or I’m going to be.
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I can imagine that this website is making you sicker.
I don’t like the fact that I’m suicidal. I wasn’t suicidal before my situation but the suicidal thoughts themselves soothe me and help me sleep, they don’t bother me. I feel comfort in knowing that I have a way out
Yeah….probably definitely is making you sicker…..just like hospitals and jails and other institutions. Not the theatre though. Definitely not there.
I don’t think this website makes anyone sicker, I stopped visiting this site for 3 days and felt more suicidal after then stopped visiting for 2 days and was close to killing myself.
I think this site could be good or bad just depending.
It’s not healthy to hang around here, but comforting at times. It’s alot of sick people on here @definitelyworried . ex. John Doe, when are you killing yourself vs (normal) when are you getting those new sneakers? To each their own though.
If someone were to ask me when I’m getting new sneakers I would probably have a breakdown because I would be reminded how messed up my life is, I wish I had a normal life with normal conversations.
When someone asks me how or when I plan to exit this world, I actually feel like they understand how I feel.
Right, you’re a lover of sarcasm and satire.
I wouldn’t say this site makes me sicker. I was just describing what suicidal ideation feels like for me.
@shoo01 okay
I get that way. I find it difficult to break the cycle. In that moment I feel ready to follow through with anything. Or whats even scarier is when I have cone to terms with the fact that I will kill myself some day, but just not yet. The biggest push to get me to do it hasn’t happened yet. It will though, and there will be no one there to stop what has been inevitable this whole time.