I’m a 41 yr old woman, and basically just dysfunctional and almost homeless. Well moving around from place to place, and no permanent spot. I never held jobs for very long because I had issues revolving around this. So basically I kind of just get by through informal ways of making money. Anyway, I often wish my life was over and I had a peaceful way out. All my would be kids were taken by the abortion clinic. I struggle with regret and grief over this now but it didn’t hit real hard till I was older. So being childless, no partner, no stability, no family, leaves you in a pretty bad place as you get older. This is why I’ve been considering ending my life in the near future. There’s nothing to keep me going I guess.
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How long have you been considering ending your life? Have you thought of a method? Have you tried before? What do you mean by in the near future?
I hope you don’t mind me asking.
Im a woman who was homeless for 2 years, and Ive also had to resort to informal ways of making money before. Your story is too similar to mine. Regret and shame are difficult emotions to handle, especially if youre in survival mode. Maybe VOA can help with Housing? I know its not the best, but at least you wont be bouncing around. I wish you all the best in any case
Thanks, what is VOA? I have tried before to strangle myself but found it not quick and easy enough. I’ve wanted to end my life for some years now but I’ve dealt more with suicidal ideation vs acting on the impulse. I know that I have complex PTSD and it’s never been treated or addressed.
VOA = Volunteers of America, which I suppose is only helpful if you live in the USA
and yeah, hanging is a difficult death. Im more of the acting on it type though. Still, being at the ideation stage is no fun
You can solve your problems, i understand your mindset and it is normal to wish you didn’t exist, but you are in a bearable position, you have your health, you’re still young and able to work. Maybe try psychedelics like ayahuasca it can rejuvenate you, give you strength and fill you with wonderment for the universe.
When you suffer unbearable incurable pain and suffering a loss of dignity as a result of that pain then suicide would be wise.. we live in an amazing place with wo much beauty hand to us on a silver platter, and you are equipped to experience so much more. I’m in chronic pain and I’ve tried hanging and that shit is hard you feel like your head will explode and you get disoriented with so much thoughts that youre compelled to back out. I tried several times and still couldn’t go through with it no matter how desperate I was to die.
Hi Agonizing, thanks for the kind words. Thanks for all the comments 🙂