Do you know what it feels like to be completely hopeless and feel like you can’t do anything? That you start to belive what people think about you? That’s what happened to me.
I attempted suicide 6 times within the past 3 years. 2 of those times, i went to a hospital and nearly died of bloodloss. The other 4 times… lets just say that i was seconds away from going to a hospital again. It has come to this point, that it feels a little odd, does it not? 6 times i tried to kill myself, 6 times i tried to break that curse called life because i thought that people would be better off without me, that i’m just a burden because i can’t bring myself to do more than sleep and listen to music. When i wake up in the morning the first thought in my head is “i’d rather die than go anywhere”. But i’m still here. I’m still writing this little so called story.
I do not believe in god or any other creature that watches over us, but i do belive in faith somewhat. Maybe i’m still needer here on this awful planet and that’s why i can’t die.
My point being:
It won’t get easier. Your life will just get harder and harder and by experience i can say that there will be thousands of times that you want to give up or punch someone in the face when they tell you to be positive and think happy thoughts. It will only get harder.
But if you that are reading this, are one of those that has attempted suicide and you’re still here, think about it. No matter how messed up your life is, it won’t let you die because it still needs you.
If you that are reading this, are one of those who’s planning on suicide. It’s useless. Death might be beautiful and we will all get there once, but suicide is one of the most boring options you can choose. It will do you no good and life probably still needs you and it won’t let you go that easily.
Stay strong, and no matter how unbelivable it is, I DO BELIEVE IN YOU!