I very much feel the same. Can’t seem to escape this rut. It’s coming up to end of year 2. I don’t see an end to this. I have no hope anymore. I’m severely depressed. Recently I’ve started thinking about hanging as my choice. I’ve never made a decision before. I’ve researched methods of ways to go but I never really thought about actually doing it. But now I am sure that I will die with my own hands. I really want things to get better. However I spend more time thinking about not wanting to be here and focus too much on my suffering and my fears. Fear of living. Suffering from anxiety triggered by my anti social ways. I can’t do anything right or in a normal way.
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I very much feel the same. Can’t seem to escape this rut. It’s coming up to end of year 2. I don’t see an end to this. I have no hope anymore. I’m severely depressed. Recently I’ve started thinking about hanging as my choice. I’ve never made a decision before. I’ve researched methods of ways to go but I never really thought about actually doing it. But now I am sure that I will die with my own hands. I really want things to get better. However I spend more time thinking about not wanting to be here and focus too much on my suffering and my fears. Fear of living. Suffering from anxiety triggered by my anti social ways. I can’t do anything right or in a normal way.