probably not going to post this, but writing helps I guess… I’m feeling that kind of sadness again… as the one, I felt when I was depressed… I can’t even cry, as much as I try or want to cry, to pour it all out, I just can’t and it’s killing me.
I can’t and don’t know how to express my feelings to my closest friends and it’s killing me. i just don’t feel like i have control over my life. i’ve been trying for more than a month affirmative sentences and i’ve read a lot of books of self-improvement and stuff like this, and at first, it seemed as it helped, but now, i just don’t feel any consequences of my trying to improve… maybe it’s just life to test me, but still… it doesn’t help, huh…. rn don’t know what to do anymore…
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I know exactly how you feel. Maybe I have different circumstances but it sounds familiar. Today I drove a friend downtown and I watched all the happy looking people walking around and I realized how empty and sad my life is. I’ve not been living right either so if I have nothing it’s because I failed to make a life for myself. I’m essentially stuck in a not better position in life than when I was 19 and now I’m a 41 female, broke, not as attractive as I was, the men are gone, I pushed them away. So now life is very challenging. I’m basically have nothing but regret and feel like I screwed myself.
Thanks for posting this, I can relate to you, even though I’m a 32 year old male. I’m filled with regret.
My life is still spiraling down, I hope it gets better somehow.
I live in mental and emotional pain badly.
I’ve tried killing myself but couldn’t go through with it.
So I try every now and then again, and of course if I don’t, I must keep living this scary life of mine.