I have no more will to live. I don’t even really care to write about it anymore. I want to but I’m emotionally dead and when I try nothing really comes out. I think it’s because I’ve become so fucking miserable, the majority of the time my mood is as low as 1-3/10, that I don’t feel sad at all about the idea of dying young anymore.
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Yeah I wouldn’t say my mood moves above a 1 (at the highest) / 10….. but that’s been my whole life so nothing new. Pills make it worse so much worse you couldn’t believe. Just my luck to be trapped and forcefully medicated.
I feel the exact same way. I’m pretty young but I don’t even care if death knocks on my door at this point. I hope somehow, someway you feel better soon though
Yeah I get you. Like I feel so empty and constantly ask myself: what’s the point? I wish my mood didn’t go above 3 because on those very rare occasions where I can forget about how I feel, it makes it worse when it’s over. The contrast hits hard as I settle back into that 1-3. I don’t feel that sad anymore, just empty. I know how it feels to be emotionally dead; it makes you feel hopeless. Feel you