I ate a blue berry muffin. I thought about going to eat a burger, but I have eaten out every day for the past week and a half. Too much junk and money wasted. I ran out of meal tickets close to a month ago. I don’t have anywhere to store or cook food with, so you know. I honestly don’t know why I still keep going. This bad feels kind of different to be honest. The type of bad that doesn’t really feel all that different from the regular bad but still has that quality to it you know? I don’t think I’ll scrape by this time around. I think I’m ok with that. I kind of feel that my time has been up for a while now. Should have happened a while ago. This year I realized how lonely life actually is. In highschool I had a friend here or there. College just felt empty. Go to one lecture to the next. Nothing inbetween. I think that’s why I didn’t go a good chunk of the time. I just was tired of the routine. My stomach has been hurting for the past few days. Too much junk. Everybody is leaving campus. My parents had stuff to do so they couldn’t come by to help me pack up. I get it. I’ll see them friday though. I think i’ll just get garbage bags and put my stuff in them. They are cheap and I don’t need to by any expensive storage boxes. My truck is small so. I think I’ve been not feeling good for a while. I found an eraser on the floor. Put it in my pocket. Still haven’t worked on the essay. You know. I get it.
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What you speak of here reminds me of Maslow’s Hierarchy of Needs. It seems you are trying to fill a love and belonging need in your life while still working out the shelter category. Interesting concept, seems like archaic bull but still interesting enough.