I’m being squeezed so tight by life pressures, I may have to leave my job due to ill health. If I took ill health retirement at 36 I would feel like such a failure- failing to provide for my two children, loss of my career and role, loss of financial independence.
I’m the main bread winner so my partners wage isn’t enough to cover all of the bills.
I feel like I can’t go on anymore, not just in this situation but with this illness. I researched a method, set up and it seemed a good option. I’m still here because I haven’t had the time alone in the last week to carry things out. I also feel terribly guilty to leave my children. I want the absolute best for them and I can’t provide that anymore, but I also don’t want to burden them with the emotional damage of grief.
I don’t know what to do, I’m just so low and can’t breathe from the pressures anymore.
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Can u tell me the method you are thinking of?
Your life is worth more to your children than what you can provide for them.
I can’t believe you would kill yourself over this. I mean mainly because of your kids. They do not care that you can barely support them, and they do understand that ure struggling bc kids can sense a parents stress. You’re so lucky, all my kids were taken by abortion and I have nothing to live for basically. No job, no assistance from gov, no spouse, no family really that I’m close to. You should try to get help through some sort of charity like talk to the churches around your area. Churches are more likely to help u in a humane way than the gov agencies. I’m sure there would be people who would help you through some sort of charity but u have to try. Also put your pride aside and talk to people around you. The only true help I ever got was privately because I put out my sob story and it worked. Pple really do give a shit but nobody can help u if they don’t understand what ure going through. Plz don’t hurt yourself it will destroy your kids and partner.