For me, every SINGLE year since late 2008 has been absolute HORSE SHIT. I swear to god, if I have even ONE more shitty year after 2018, then I’m DONE with life.
I’m having a very hard time, I was thinking of doing it tonight, but it’s fathers day sunday, and I can’t do that to my dad, I mean he would be in so much pain anyways, but I can’t live like this. I don’t know, I’m still thinking of doing it tonight, but I don’t think I’m going to.
I know I’m going to hate these next few dsys.
I can’t describe the type of pain I feel right now.
Everytime I try to fix a problem it only makes it worse, I’m a 32 year old male and in order to explain my problems it would take about an hour to explain.
Too many problems. And I don’t see anyway I could fix them, in fact the more I look for a way to fix them, the more problems I find. And I’m tired of getting bad news, I have not had one good news in 6 months. Not one.
Interesting that you seem to log it in terms of years. I’ve been suicidal for more or less the same amount of time, and I just marvel at… How can a human being survive so much emotional pain? I think pretty much every day for all those years I has felt bad enough to want to die. Not all day, but enough that life didn’t feel worthwhile.
Also, I did what you’re supposed to do, I asked for help. They just didn’t really help me. I guess they just don’t care.
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I’m having a very hard time, I was thinking of doing it tonight, but it’s fathers day sunday, and I can’t do that to my dad, I mean he would be in so much pain anyways, but I can’t live like this. I don’t know, I’m still thinking of doing it tonight, but I don’t think I’m going to.
I know I’m going to hate these next few dsys.
I can’t describe the type of pain I feel right now.
what has been bad if you don’t mind me asking…..?
Everytime I try to fix a problem it only makes it worse, I’m a 32 year old male and in order to explain my problems it would take about an hour to explain.
Too many problems. And I don’t see anyway I could fix them, in fact the more I look for a way to fix them, the more problems I find. And I’m tired of getting bad news, I have not had one good news in 6 months. Not one.
Interesting that you seem to log it in terms of years. I’ve been suicidal for more or less the same amount of time, and I just marvel at… How can a human being survive so much emotional pain? I think pretty much every day for all those years I has felt bad enough to want to die. Not all day, but enough that life didn’t feel worthwhile.
Also, I did what you’re supposed to do, I asked for help. They just didn’t really help me. I guess they just don’t care.
Who are you kidding?
Every year of your entire existence has been horsesh*t and you hate your birth parents.
I don’t hate my parents. But I hate my life.